TVD THE DEPARTED:where Damon Salvatore broke my heart...because it hurts how much he loves.

[x5vale]

I haven't cried over a TV Show since I think the finale of SPN S3...and today I have cried...a lot..more under the cut.



Alaric
I knew he would have been the one to die, but I can't realize it.I mean it's Ric, Damon's best friend and he died, in Damon's arms...no more bromance, no more friendship. I can't even...
RIP RIC.

Rebekah&Eljiah
They broke me when REbekah toldto her older brother that Klaus was dead. You could see what family meant to them, even though Klaus has betrayed them on so many levels I can't even count them. I want them around and safe forever. I just love these two.

Klaus
It was pretty obvious to me that he wouldn't have stayed dead for too long. Now he inhabitates Tyler's body...does it mean that Joseph Morgan won't be back? Unless Bonnie has somehow saved Klaus body, it should have been burned...so I am very curious about this.
Anyway I am glad he is not dead. This character has a great potential and I want to see it developed.

Matt
Oh Matt, I so love this guy. He was the only one who could have given up on everything and left town, but he stayed there because that is his place, his home. I loved how he tried to help Elena in every possible way, even with her choice and I do really hope he is not gone.

Jeremy
Much love for him too. When Ric asked for his help, I was afraid he was going to betray all the others, but he didn't. He was honest and he helped with the plan. I do really think Elena should learn from him how to handle very hard decisions.

Bonnie
Love for her too. She decided to stand up for herself and what she wants and not to obey to others orders or desires. She went dark when she decided to save Klaus, but she did to save her friends. I loved how Bonnie was aware of the consenquences of her choice and I appreciated that she was finally able to admit that sometimes you have to make questionable decisions for the greater good.

Caroline&Tyler
I have never shipped them and I don't, but I really enjoyed the two of them together..even if they looked a little bit disconnected from all the others.
Loved Caroline with Elena though.

Stefan
I don't have much to say about him...he was there, letting the others to decide and to organize. He was not pro-active and this is very Stefan,I can't blame him for this. I liked how he was around Elena and I felt his pain when he was speaking to Damon. I could see the brotherly love.
Let me just add this: Elena wasn't enough for Stefan to fight his desire of revenge. Elena was enough for Damon to fight Ric back and live...just saying'

Elena
The flashbacks broke me. How she is still alive surprises me. Her life was normal, maybe not exciting, but safe and now..now she is not the same anymore.
Did she make a choice? Yes, she chose Stefan as I have been thinking for a while. She chose Stefan by default. She didn't choose him because of him. Because of his qualities, of his personality. She chose him because it was safe, because Stefan is her bond to her previous life. He is her last connection to her parents, Stefan is the guy who helped her to live again. She can be happy with him...but she won't ever feel the fire. Not the fire of passion, which is something that passes, but the fire of true love. The one which consumes you.
So I do think Elena will feel it eventually and I am not sure we are going to have Elena and Stefan living happily so easily. She will remember when she first met Damon, she will remember what Damon told her in 2.08? She will...and she will have to deal with it and with her magnified feelings (because there is no doubt that she will turn, otherwise she will be dead)
What about her with Damon? She was in denial. She didn't say she loves him, she said she cares about him and this is denial, but I'm not mad at her. I feel sorry for her because she's depriving herself of something intense and pure that she deserves to feel. I think her journey to fully accept Damon in her life is not complete, not yet. This triangle couldn't be over with Elena picking Damon now...because they have spent 3 seasons to build up their relationship, but Elena has never explored her feelings for Damon for real. She relies on her love for Stefan, because Stefan was there when she needed someone the most and now, in desperate times, it's easier to get back to him (I don't even want to talk about the fact that everything Stefan has done has been forgiven -bad characterization- but I do think that everything Damon has done too has been forgiven...)...so yeah I am not disappointed by Elena choice. It's about getting there, falling in love with Damon eventually. She is still getting there.

Damon.
All my tears were for him. Serioulsy. He broke me in every possible way. Give me a fucked up character, the character who never wins, who is never allowed to some happiness, who wears his "I am unbreakable" mask all the time and then breaks and feels much more than everyone else, who is vulnerable and loves as none else and I am doomed.
Dean Winchester and Damon Salvatore are the only two characters I have fallen so hard for...and both of them are two tortured souls who can't ever have what they deserve.
I loved that when Ric was beating the crap out of him, he was remembering the first time he saw Elena and it kinda gave him the strenght to react and fight. When Ric attacked him, after Elena told him she was setting him free, he was giving up, he was almost surrending then exactly when Elena had the car accident, he remembered his first encounter with her...and he told her what she wanted and it was exactly what Elena told Matt about Damon. A love that consumes. How prophetic! This gave him the strenght to fight Ric back..Damn he loves her so much it hurts....
How about the fact that while Elena was dying, the focus was Damon's reaction to it? He had Ric in his arms dying and he immediately realized that Elena was dying too and you could see all the horror and the pain on his face...so even though Damon and Elena were not together in this episode, imo they were way closer than Stefan and Elena.
Damon broke me because once again his hopes were shattered and his heart was wounded, his vulnerability showed but despite all of this, he was able to put himself together, get back to MF to see her...and his face when Meredith told him she had helped her? Broke me again, because if there is something that Elena didn't want, was to lose her human status...and now...everything is about to change. For Damon too.


Random thoughts:

-I loved how Damon protected Rebekah from Alaric and told her to run.

-I enjoy more and more the interaction between Damon and Meredith.

-I loved how Carol and Liz tried to protect their kids.

Comments

Re: 3x22 review: part 6

[x5vale.livejournal.com]

Damon actually met Elena first, the night her parents died.
I know D/E people are crazy over this, but I am not sure it is so meaningful for Elena. I think Damon words to her were and I hope, now that she remembers, she will pay attention to them and that memory was important for Damon when he was about to give up and let Ric kill him...but I don't want to read too much into it. I am not sure there is a connection between the fact that Elena told him "if we had met first" during the call and the fact that they actually met first.

Oh my! In this one scene, the chemistry between the two character sprang to life and had more fire than any of the previous S/E scenes including that kiss.
This! I read some people say that Elena and Damon are boring together...eheheheheh seriously? I am not even a real D/E shipper but they two of them are everything but boring together!

And oh it was fun to see cocky Damon back mixed in with honesty and some vulnerability. :))
For a sec he hoped it was Kath.

It was extremely telling for me as a viewer that while Damon at first mistook Elena for Katherine, he immediately recognized the mistake and treated her as a person in her own right.
Perfect description is perfect.

He also saw her and her wants right away--he knew her. And Elena asked him what he wanted. Tragically, we didn’t get Damon’s answer because Elena’s parents arrived. Instead Damon compels Elena to forget him, and to go after what she wants and to fulfill her dreams. Oh Damon!
That scene is so meaningful and very telling of Damon's real nature, that is not only the one we saw at the beginning of S1...awwww my babe!!!

And then Alaric faltered, he was dying and oh my goodness the shock, pain, and denial on Damon’s face...*cries* He was denying both their deaths I believe.
He was indeed. It was Ric's first and then He realized it was Elena and I just wanted to cuddle him forever...

I cry watching Damon catch Ric, the way he held him, how it was about both Ric and Elena at the same time. Just...guh!
I cried too...that one is a scene I won't be able to rewatch for a long time.

Guh! Damon really went through the emotional wringer this episode and I look forward to seeing how he handles everything next season.
I can't wait!

I also really love how Damon is such a core part of everyone’s lives and how he’s involved with the lives of the MF’s gang. He has really come to matter to them and I think his absence in Mystic Falls this time made it clear to at least some how much they depend on him. Matt and Jeremy certainly seemed to recognize it, Bonnie was with Damon for a short time and they had an exchange that spoke of equals.
WORD!!!

If I were to take a bet, I’d wager Damon actually knew what Bonnie did but again that scene between them was very unclear to me. Why was she there???
It wasn't exactly well done. I guess it's just one of those things that the writers do as plot device. I guess that she was there because she needed to make a spell to hide the coffin, just like the spirits did back then.

I love our long convos!!!

Other moment of stupidity: why, oh WHY did Elena tell Elijah, after it was confirmed Klaus was ‘dead’ she and Matt were driving back to town??? Rebekah wouldn’t have been able to find her and Matt otherwise.

In conclusion, Damon is awesome. Jeremy and Matt are awesome. Bonnie is coming into her own. Meredith is becoming a fully-fleshed character. Ric is a ghost and therefore still around despite his body dying. Carol and Liz are heartbreaking. Rebekah is lost and angry. Lots of story possibilities there! Looking forward to seeing what happens to them.

Re: 3x22 review: part 6

[roselani24.livejournal.com]

I know D/E people are crazy over this, but I am not sure it is so meaningful for Elena. I think Damon words to her were and I hope, now that she remembers, she will pay attention to them and that memory was important for Damon when he was about to give up and let Ric kill him...but I don't want to read too much into it. I am not sure there is a connection between the fact that Elena told him "if we had met first" during the call and the fact that they actually met first.

I agree about not reading too much into this. For me, it was mainly a squee moment because we finally got to see Damon and Elena interact directly instead of over the phone, flashback or not. :) Julie Plec said in an interview it was to soften the blow and I agree in that sense. It seemed more like a trigger for Damon to remember that first meeting and regain his will to fight. So while it may not mean much in the end to Elena aside from the fact Damon compelled her twice (not that she has any grounds to talk when she's asked Damon to compel Jeremy twice), it was really more important to Damon and showed how his actions and words when he first appeared in the Pilot were partly manufactured to be the villain Stefan viewed him as. Oh Damon, quite the actor you are! He doesn't want to live up to anyone's expectations yet by being the villain he does in fact live up to those hated expectations, just not the expectations of goodness but rather of darkness.

Oddly enough, Dean has the opposite problem. He has impossibly high expectations of himself, many placed there by his loved ones and they tend to flip out when he fails. Yet none acknowledge the sheer amazement they should at all he has accomplished. Its interesting to imagine how Damon would handle the responsibilities and weight Dean bears everyday, the constant pressure and loss...Damon has a different set of problems including a lack of trust from those around him, a reluctance to assume responsibility beyond rescuing someone and his own actions, and being in love with his brother's girl. Both are selfless to an amazing extent though. *snicker* And I imagine they would drive each other crazy because neither gives a hoot about themselves in the grand scheme of things...

Tangent done. :)

I love our long convos!!!

DITTO!! :D

Re: 3x22 review: part 6

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He doesn't want to live up to anyone's expectations yet by being the villain he does in fact live up to those hated expectations, just not the expectations of goodness but rather of darkness.
Perfect definition!

I love love love you analysis of both Damon and Dean...I so love these two...it's not even funny!