Lovely gifs at the start, Val. Very appropriate and a moment I very much loved because this episode really drove home even more for me how Dean is being left alone. Dean, for all his anti-social and awkwardness with normal folk, needs people, needs someone to protect and love and share his life with. He needs someone who is willing to stand with him and have his back without putting a knife in it. Dean loves so much, has such a big heart to share it breaks me into pieces to see him so broken and hiding his vulnerable heart even as it bleeds out everywhere. He doesn't deserve to be alone, I completely agree. But it is a very sad day when I prefer Dean hanging out with Benny than with Sam or Cas.
This Dean hates himself..but as he said, what’s one more nightmare? He is there, doing what he does best, dying inside a little bit more every time he kills because he knows he has to, but he also knows that sometimes it’s not fair. The Dean who thinks and he does think it, that people he doesn’t need anymore end up dead and Castiel face to haunt him…But this Dean…oh god this Dean so needs some comfort, a place, a person to rely on, to make him feel at peace.
Oh my, YES!!! SO MUCH!! And worse, I fear it will be a long time coming especially when the preview for next week showed so painfully clear that Sam is ready to call it quits again and leave Dean behind. It is Sam's choice and he does deserve a normal life mind, but seeing as the show is about 2 brothers hunting, it means only extreme pain and hurt and loneliness for Dean because obviously Sam can never have normal if he remains on the show. So yeah, really not happy about that and especially how this hurts Dean.
He already hates himself, has hated himself for a long, long time. My concern is, what will happen when Dean lets go? And seriously, I don't see how he won't at some point. Sam wants to bail on him again after a not even looking for him, Cas bailed on him and Dean had to track him down in Purgatory, Kevin bailed with his mom and left an accusatory note that Dean just uses people and then kills him. Benny and Dean chose to seperate, but Dean made it very clear that if Benny calls Dean will come in a heartbeat. The same promise that has always been there for Sam, for Castiel, and in the past for his dad and John Winchester. How people have taken advantage of him for that! :'(
Castiel ran away and then he said that it did for Dean. No. Just no. It’s what he did before. He didn’t tell Dean about his hidden agenda to protect him and he worked on his own, lying, manipulating and practically screwing up with everything. Meanwhile Castiel was protecting Dean, Dean was alone fighting for his life, turning in someone he is going to hate for the rest of his life.
Great point and I agree completely that leaving Dean alone to battle the monsters of Purgatory was the worse decision Castiel could have made. I think he ran to protect Dean because he cares, but also because he was ashamed and didn't want to stay with Dean at that point.
Dean has not fully forgiven Cas, though he was certainly getting to that point prior to being dropped in Purgatory. I'm still trying to wrap my head around Cas not realizing that despite that, Dean would have fought by his side in Purgatory without a thought. Because Dean stands with his loved ones and he will stand against them as well when they (re: Sam, Cas, Bobby) stray and do something incredibly stupid and make a mess that requires Dean to clean up. Of course maybe that was why Cas thought it was a better idea to flee...except Dean was praying to him every night and the idiot should have realized Dean would search for him. *sighs* Messed up angel! Maybe...maybe he'll finally get it later this season. But I am not too hopeful.
Actually, I'm more worried Dean is going to go Dark Phoenix ala X-Men because of how poorly he is being treated, how badly he is being rejected when he's trying so hard to do the right thing and to re-balance himself after a year of non-stop combat. We'll see.
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Date: 2012-10-11 09:40 pm (UTC)This Dean hates himself..but as he said, what’s one more nightmare? He is there, doing what he does best, dying inside a little bit more every time he kills because he knows he has to, but he also knows that sometimes it’s not fair. The Dean who thinks and he does think it, that people he doesn’t need anymore end up dead and Castiel face to haunt him…But this Dean…oh god this Dean so needs some comfort, a place, a person to rely on, to make him feel at peace.
Oh my, YES!!! SO MUCH!! And worse, I fear it will be a long time coming especially when the preview for next week showed so painfully clear that Sam is ready to call it quits again and leave Dean behind. It is Sam's choice and he does deserve a normal life mind, but seeing as the show is about 2 brothers hunting, it means only extreme pain and hurt and loneliness for Dean because obviously Sam can never have normal if he remains on the show. So yeah, really not happy about that and especially how this hurts Dean.
He already hates himself, has hated himself for a long, long time. My concern is, what will happen when Dean lets go? And seriously, I don't see how he won't at some point. Sam wants to bail on him again after a not even looking for him, Cas bailed on him and Dean had to track him down in Purgatory, Kevin bailed with his mom and left an accusatory note that Dean just uses people and then kills him. Benny and Dean chose to seperate, but Dean made it very clear that if Benny calls Dean will come in a heartbeat. The same promise that has always been there for Sam, for Castiel, and in the past for his dad and John Winchester. How people have taken advantage of him for that! :'(
Castiel ran away and then he said that it did for Dean. No. Just no. It’s what he did before. He didn’t tell Dean about his hidden agenda to protect him and he worked on his own, lying, manipulating and practically screwing up with everything. Meanwhile Castiel was protecting Dean, Dean was alone fighting for his life, turning in someone he is going to hate for the rest of his life.
Great point and I agree completely that leaving Dean alone to battle the monsters of Purgatory was the worse decision Castiel could have made. I think he ran to protect Dean because he cares, but also because he was ashamed and didn't want to stay with Dean at that point.
Dean has not fully forgiven Cas, though he was certainly getting to that point prior to being dropped in Purgatory. I'm still trying to wrap my head around Cas not realizing that despite that, Dean would have fought by his side in Purgatory without a thought. Because Dean stands with his loved ones and he will stand against them as well when they (re: Sam, Cas, Bobby) stray and do something incredibly stupid and make a mess that requires Dean to clean up. Of course maybe that was why Cas thought it was a better idea to flee...except Dean was praying to him every night and the idiot should have realized Dean would search for him. *sighs* Messed up angel! Maybe...maybe he'll finally get it later this season. But I am not too hopeful.
Actually, I'm more worried Dean is going to go Dark Phoenix ala X-Men because of how poorly he is being treated, how badly he is being rejected when he's trying so hard to do the right thing and to re-balance himself after a year of non-stop combat. We'll see.