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THIS EPISODE ROCKED my fangirl world.

JENSEN IS THE PRETTY.

DOUBLE DEAN!!! The dream of every Dean!girl ;)))

I am totally not coherent now. I thin I have much more to say.

The episode was about choices imo.

The phone call.
Dean's reaction to Sam revelation: I liked that he didn't panick. At this point, Dean expects everything to happen and due to what Sam did in S4, he is not surprised at all.
It hurt. I love and hate what Kripke has done and does with this boys.
I love love love to see Dean in pain for what he has lost but so determined to go on alone.
Is he doing this because doesn't trust Sam anymore? Yes. Is he convinced they are stronger apart from each other,?Yes.Does he love Sam. Yes but....it's too much, everything he has gone
through all his life was about Sam and what Sam did last year, it's something that hurt Dean more than being in Hell.
He thinks he has lost everything he has lived for. He thinks his family has failed him.
His the first time maybe that Dean thinks he is not the one to fail.
I understand people don't like what he is doing, but give him a chance. I can imagine what he is going through.
Plus, the Apocalypse. Stopping it right now, is what Dean wants to do. His main task, everything else comes later.

I have to say I was scared by how they would have written Sam in this episode.
I liked the "redemption" motivation he gave for wanting to come back. I truly believe Sam wants to redeem himself.

The episode:
All the fight scenes reminded me so much of Dark Angel and war movies. I just loved them Hawk Down.

-I think Dean doesn't like much future!Dean. Five years have made him so cold. He has become a true leader, due to the circumstances but he has lost more humanity than how much he had already lost in Hell. It was so clear when future!Dean was ready to sacrifice his friends to kill the devil.
Dean is not going to accept this. Dean doesn't want to become that Dean.He has to make a choice.

-Future!Dean telling Dean the truth about Sam. The look on Dean's face was so hurtbreaking.Dean still believes Sam is good, he still believes Sam won't ever say yes, but Sam did.
The speech future!Dean gave to him was full of anger, frustration and guilt. Once again Dean thinks he is the one to have failed. He said no to the angels, he said no to Sam. Things screwed up. I can see why he has hardened so much. He was wrong. I can see how much he is paying for his choices.
It's too late but now he sees a chance to change things. Mixed things, mixed feelings. Becoming Michael vessel, letting Sam coming back, sacrificing again everything for something else. Doing what he doesn't want but what is right. I think Dean will find another way to win the war and Sam is a pivotal person in the development of Dean's storyarch. The same goes for Dean in Sam's one. It's like a full circle. All pieces are coming together.
Dean and Sam will realize they are stronger together but they have to understand they can live without being so co-dependent.

-If Sam comes back, it's not the best for their relationship, if he doesn't come back, he will be Lucifer vessel.
Sam. I don't know, seeing him as Lucifer's vessel made me cringe. He wasn't strong enough to resist. He surrendered to him. Why? Because Dean pushed him away during the phone call 5 years before? Wasn't him strong enough to win his fight without his brother?
Sam...Sam said yes. This hurt me more than I have ever thought it could. Blind faith in the fallen angel. Love for God. Weakness. Loliness. What pushed Sam in the wrong direction? Whatever it was, he let his dark side win. I think maybe I have always been wrong about Sam. I have always said he wasn't just Sammy, that he had something wrong inside but I have always said that he was good deep down. That he was the most indipendent one. Now I am not sure anymore.
Is the message of this episode that Sam without Dean can't save himself? This doesn't make Sam justice. It puts Dean in uncomfortable position too. DON'T BLAME his choice on Dean.
The only justification I find Sam that he was too weak and proud and he let his worst part to win. I just hope he did fight.
At least actual Sam is still Sam.


The real message to me is that the boys separated are both going to spoil themselves forever. The actual message is that they MUST come back together.


-The whole speech between Lucifer!San and Dean? AWESOME. I loved everything. There was everything in that scene. Jensen and Jared?
Awesome, both of them.
I felt for Dean (who always manages to break me) ad I felt for Sam.
I deeply dislike he wasn't able to say no, but I see him as one of those person who committes suicide. So desperate to give up. So alone not to see there is always a chance. Sam is the one and the only one responsible for saying yes, but I can't blame him for this (unless
some Sam!girls don't push me in that direction ;;;)

"You won't ever kill Sam"...even Lucifer knows that.


-Castiel as a human being. I prefer him as an angel because as an angel is multilayered and complicated. I enjoy to see him getting to know human beings better and trying to understand their reasons. I think he has so much potential as a tortured angel.

-Dean and Castiel were awesome as always.

The end: I think I was overwhelmed at that point but I think it was the same place where they filmes the scene with John giving then the Colt in Salvation. I just loved it, what Dean said, the doubts he has, how much he is scared. How much he is determined and Sam too.

LOVE SHOW!Love Dean, Cas, Sam. Love.